conversation with myself 12

Hello samuel, what do you wanna talk about today?
i haven't been writing the last few days. it's been four days since i wrote actually
why is that?
because i feel all this having a conversation with myself thing is a big waste of time
i thought you were doing it for fun
i was doing it for fun but i used to play chess for fun but i never got better so i quit
so you wanna quit writing just because a few days passed and you're not a bestselling author already
yeah.
so what keeps you saying what you want? you've been saying the same things for almost two years. a year and 11 months actually? why do you keep doing it?
because i believe in God's word i will have what i say. even though i don't see what i say come to pass right away. i believe in the power of my words
can you do the same with your writing? even though you don't see a bestselling novel the first month or first year of having a conversation with yourself, you can keep doing it and have faith that your bestselling novel is right around the corner
yeah but that's the thing. even if i write a novel, which might take years to do, it may not even sell a lot of copies.
then focus on your songwriting. come up with declarations for choruses
yeah i was doing that but came up with a lot of shit.
but i thought you were doing it for fun.
i was doing it for fun
so you think after a few days of coming up with declarations for choruses if you don't come up with a great chorus that's gonna get your a number 1 on the billboard hot 100 it's all in vain?
yeah i should have my great idea for a chorus already
that's not how it works. it might take years of coming up with shit choruses. shit declarations before that one idea comes to you.
man i don't wanna wait years
so what do you wanna do instead?
i don't know. i want to have success but most of the time i don't feel like doing the work that will bring me the success.
that's because you have too much expectations of the work you do. just do it for fun
what fun is it doing a bunch of exercises and all my answers are shit. feels like i'll never get better.
keep on doing it man. you'll get there. never give up. never surrender