conversation with myself 5

how you doing today samuel
i'm doing good
what do you wanna do today
i wanted to go over the book "song Maps" by Simon Hawkins
oh you liked that book
yeah i have it in my Amazon kindle but i haven't read from it a while back. but i have memorized a few of the questions from one of the song maps. there are several song maps. i thought i would just work through one of them until i get a great song out of it.
ok what question do you wanna work through
oh just the question for the chorus, the Declaration i wanna make in the chorus is?
so you have to make a declaration in the chorus
there are lots of songs that make declarations in the chorus not all songs but some of the most popular songs do
for example?
for example, want to want me by Jason Derulo
girl you're the one i want to want me
and if you want me girl you got me
there's nothing i, no, i wouldn't do. i wouldn't do
just to get up next to you (repeat chorus)

that's just one example lots of other songs make declarations in the chorus
so you think if you come up with a great declaration you'll have a great chorus and potentially a chart topper on the billboard hot 100
yeah and fans that will buy my music and money rolling in
but you thought the same thing when you started trading forex in 2008. you were thinking millions. you were thinking of making billions in the forex and futures market but all that happened is you lost your 500 dollar accounts that you funded with your broker Amp Futures.
yeah i lost a lot of 500 dollar accounts at amp futures but that has nothing to do with coming with declarations
it's the same thing. you think it's gonna make you rich but you'll just end up dissapointed just like you were dissapointed with trading Forex and futures
yeah i lost a lot of money pursuing riches in forex and futures trading but i don't regret it. i went after my dream of riches. i didn't get the riches in trading but if i were to come up with a great declaration i could get riches in having a hit song
ok what are some declarations in your mind right now
my mind is blank right now and there's lots of doubts in my mind telling me i'll never write a novel or screenplay. i'll never write a hit song.
but you don't believe that voice in your head
no i don't believe that voice. and i'm writing everyday so i'm a writer. granted what i write in the conversations i have with myself may never lead to a novel but i'm a writer and writers write
so what are some declarations in your mind right now
i'll love you right this time
that could make a good song
yeah lets see the question you need to ask for the first verse taken from song maps by simon hawkings is, the problem that prompts the burst of emotion that is declared in the chorus is?
what burst of emotions will you declare in the chorus
i could say i'll love you right this time
my love wasn't yours last time
i really did mess it up
i was immature
but just give me another chance
i'll love you right this time

that song really sucks
hey it's the best i could do
but it sucks compared to the jason derulo song's you love to listen to, this song sucks
maybe i need to come up with the sucky songs first before the Christ inside of me gives me ideas for a great declaration for a great chorus
maybe. what problem would prompt the burst of emotion declared in the chorus you just came up with
i don't know. but let me see
you showed me the videos on our wedding it
you saw me kissing your sister
but i swear she tricked me by getting me drunk

that's shit sucks
why do you say everything i write sucks
cause it does
yeah but i'm just having fun
you think writing the crap you just wrote is fun
yeah it's fun. i have no expectation of immediate success. i'm really to have fun with the exercise for months and years before get that one declaration that could be a number 1 on the billbaord hot 100.
you'll never get a hit on the billboard hot 100
maybe i will maybe i won't. i don't know. but right now i'm just having fun doing writing exercise.
so you like doing the exercise out of that book "song Maps" by simon hawkins
yeah i like it. when i'm in the shower i analyze hit song with song maps
so you like answering those questions.
yeah i just do it for fun
keep on doing it man
yeah i will
you think you could have fun answering the questions in the book "Break into Fiction"
yeah that book has  lot of questions. i don't know. there are so much more questions to answer to get to a nover or screenplay then for a song. for a song i just need a good or great declaration for a chorus.then the problem for the first verse. then the natural authentic response to the emotion that is declared in the chorus for the second verse. but in novel writing i need so much more. and it's exhausting
do it for fun anyways
yeah i will
ok bye