conversation with myself 4

what's going on today samuel
not much
what do you wanna talk about today
i just don't fee like reading the writing books i have on Amazon kindle
you have a lot of those books
yeah i bought a lot of them cause i thought i wanted to be a writer
but you realized you just wanna have fun?
yeah i just wanna have fun and those books are boring to read
if you don't read those book how will you ever achieve your dream of becoming a novelist
i don't know. i just wanna have fun. i don't really want to be a novelist
are you having fun right now, with this conversation you're having with yourself
yeah i'm having fun but i don't know if it will lead to a written novel
but you enjoy doing the conversation with yourself
yeah i enjoy it. pretty much the only writing exercise i enjoy doing. but i feel like it's not enough.
what do you mean it's not enough?
i feel like it's not gonna lead to nothing. it's just a big waste of time
you think having the conversation with yourself is a big waste of time
yeah i think so.
why do you think so.
cause the things i've written is not novel writing material.
but you're having fun. thought that was the most important thing for you
yeah it's very important to have fun but i wanna do something that will lead me to a novel, even if it's not a bestselling novel
but you don't wanna do the writing exercises
no i don't wanna do em. because they're not fun to do.
then you'll probably never write a novel yourself
what about songwriting. when i'm in the shower i analyze hit songs.
which hit song do you analyze.
Jason Derulo songs. and other artists.
how do you go about analyzing the songs
first i ask the question, the declaration i wanna make in the chorus is?
so the chorus is all about a declaration.
yeah that's one type of chorus. there are other types but that's the type i'm working through right now.
so can you try to come up with some declarations right now. just for fun of course. if it's not fun you can quit.
okay i can try.
i wanna make love to you while your brother watches
that's a pretty fucked up declaration
yeah i'm just doing it for fun
what else do you got?
i'm gonna throw you out of my house if you don't behave.
that's not a very universal declaration. and who is this song for anyways. what else do you got?
girl, i never wanna see you naked
whoa. you never wanna see your girl naked. are you gay or something.
not gay. just coming up with declarations for choruses of potential songs.
OK. what else you got
i'm gonna tear your heart apart and leave you tonight
whoa. that's pretty sick
yeah that's just something i came up with right off the top of my head.
what else do you got?
baby i want to never leave this bed
you can't stay in bed all day
I know. it's just another declaration i came up with right off the top of my head.
what else do you got
i've ran out of ideas.
no you haven't. you write down the first thing off the time of your head
ok. honey, i no longer want you be my baby
or you could just saying i'm leaving you baby
yeah that could work to
so anything else you wanna write.
i don't know. right off the top of my head. it's basically empty.
your head is not empty. you just don't wanna keep doing the exercise cause you think what you've come up with is shit. so you wanna quit
yeah you're right. the declarations i've come up with are shit. why should i keep doing this exercise when everything i come up with is shit. it's not leading me to a billboard chart topper. just shit declarations.
just do it for fun man. do it for fun. and you will come up with majority shit. but that one declaration you come up with a few months from now could be your ticket to a chart topper on the billboard hot 100
i don't know. i'll try to keep doing it but there is no guarantee i will