conversation with myself 3

Hello samuel
hello, the God inside of me
what do you wanna talk about today?
i'm not sure. maybe we could just chat
what do you wanna chat about
where do you see me in ten years? Am i wealthy beyong my wildest dreams?
i don't know where do you see yourself?
but you are the God inside of me. you can see the future can't you?
you create your own future with your thoughts and what you say
but i've been saying the same thing for almost two years and what i've been saying hasn't come to pass
so you saying you want to quit?
i can't quit. there is nothing else i can do
so you only believe in Mark 11:23, you shall have whatsoever you say, because you have failed at everything else
yeah of course. at one point i wanted to be a doctor. a Neurosurgeon but i didn't do well in my science classes. but if i did do well in my classes and i went to med school and became a doctor, i don't think i would believe in you can have what you say. because i would be more focused on doing my job
so you only believe in God cause you failed to achieve your goal?
that's one reason. and i have a childlike faith in the words of the bible. i read numbers 14:28 at first. i believed it. then came across mark 11:23. i believed it then came across luke 17:6. i believed it.
but nothing's come from you putting your believe and faith in the word of the bible
i've seen some things i've said come to pass
like what
i rather not say. but i spoke over some tennis players and they became very good
but what you've spoken over yourself hasn't happened.
no it hasn't.
how long can you keep going, how long can you keep believing in the words of the bible before you give up, before you say the bible is a bunch of lies.
i think a decade or two
20 years
yeah 20 years
you would be willing to speak the same words everyday for 20 years just to see if Mark 11:23 is true
yeah i would. there is not much else i can do. i've pretty much failed at everything else i've tried to do. so i  hope the word of God will not failed me. i will have what i say.
good luck to you. so how is your novel writing going
i've having the written conversation with myself everyday. so i am writing everyday. cause it's fun. but i don't think the things i'm writing are material for a novel.
so what can you do to start coming up with material for your novel
that's the thing. i don't want to do anything to come up with material for novel
i thought you wanted to be a writer
i thought that myself but i realized from having conversations with myself that i just wanna have fun. when it comes to actually doing writing exercises i don't wanna do em
so you wanna be a writer but you don't wanna write
i am writing everyday. i am having the written conversation with myself
but that not leading to any material for a novel
i know.
so the conversation with yourself, you're all for it. but doing fiction writing exercises, that's a no no
it's just not fun to do
so you don't wanna to be a writer, you just wanna have fun
yeah
then keep on having a conversation with yourself. have fun. but don't complain when you never get a novel out of the conversation with yourself
David Morrell's talk about how he used the conversation with himself to write his novel
so maybe you can do the same
maybe but it's not fun.
forget about having fun for a minute. could you spend 15 to 30 minutes doing fiction writing exercises even though you know they wouldn't be fun.
i could start but i don't know if i would stick with it for months for years
cause if it's not fun you'll give up right?
yeah right
then there is no hope of you ever writing a novel
maybe that's a good thing. most novel are not bestsellers anyway. writers barely make any money. some make a lot of money but most barely make any money.